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Hey hey, heyheyheyhey. I can't sleepp X[ But i'm alright with that at the moment, cause they I can sleep all tomorrow, and completely avoid typing a 7pg paper about nothingg (: It's due monday, and I'll probably do it sunday night/morning ;]

I haven't written on this thing in forever, dom and I were talking about that the other day actually. Oh welll. This week has been vacation, wooot. It has been pretty chill, I played tennis, and tanned, and hung out with people. And did zero homework, which is probably gonna become a problem pretty soonish, but i'll deal, hahah. I got my prom dress, finally :p So happy, cause it took me maybee 45 minutes to find what I wanted, and then get out of there. Of course, I happened to go on the hottest day of vacation, so I definitely didn't feel like climbing in and out of million-pound poof balls for 6 hours ;) I think I tried on like, 4 maybe? I liked two of them, took pictures, then just picked. The one i picked is red, and glittery-ish and whatnott. Still haven't got shoes, and reallyy need to get a new camera for prom. Buut considering its this Friday, I'm not sure I feel like trying to convince my parents any more to buy me a new camera before then :p But I shall figure that outt.

Simone's staying over. She's in my room like, sleeping on the floor, no idea why, whatev.. We hung out with people tonight, and Mary blessed us with playing on the guitar, andddd singing roughly 25 songs. It was pretty great.

I kinda started writing this to vent, but then I vented a little bit to Dommm, basically about people who are pissingg me off, and acting a little bit like they're twelve years old. So: venting accomplished, i guess?

I'm bummin abit about the fact that there is only two days left of vacation. And those two days need to be spent doing homework that I procrastinated doing, gahh and cleaning my abyss of a room. I rearranged so much shit in my room today so I could put my tv and dvd player back in, so we could watch movies tonight. Yeah, no movies were watched. We went to Mary's, and planned on watching a movie, but Teag picked this random one with Anne Hathaway, that I maybe payed attention to a total of 18 seconds of. So we just went to walmart, and the park.

I probably sorta kinda should possibly go to sleep now, maybs. Idk, guess we'll see.

hello oh nine

So new years was pretty fun. Dom stayed over again today, then left to go visit some other people before she leaves tomorrow.

I cannnotttt believe 08 is over. Gah. I can't even imagine what 2009 is gonna be like.
I didn't really make any official resolutions or anything like that. But there really is so much that I want to change.
I had such an amazing year last year. I got to spend so much time with such great people. I made new friends and met new people, and then there were always my closest friends, who right down to the wire were always there for me. We had our ups and downs. Shit, yeah we did :P But they we're so amazing. This summer was one of the greatest summers I think I've ever had. Simone and I were talking a few weeks ago about how we just loved how we could wake up in the morning (or afternoon, hahaha) and know we had something planned. We didn't even have to have set plans for what we were doing, but we knew we were all hanging out. From random drives to concord and who knows what time, or trips to the sandwich creamery, or scary movie nights, or girly sleepovers, we always had ridiculous amounts of fun with whatever we did. Things got kinda crazy at the very end of summer, and that was expected I guess...but seriously, no matter what, nothing can ever change how absolutly amazing that summer was. I couldn't ever imagine spending it with another group of people. I would give absolutly everything to have all of the rest of my summers be like this past one. And I can't even begin to thank all of the people in my life enough for making it so great.

As far as 2009 this year goes. I don't even know what is to come. I'm planning a lot of stuff, just little things I wanna do I guess. I wanna stop being so negative about certain stuff. All this school year so far I have found it so hard to look on the positive side of things. I mean, this summer was so amazing, and now that I'm back in school, and things are not the same, I automatically assume things will never be as good as this past summer again. I need to stop living comparing everything to last year. It used to be so easy for me to just be optimistic about absolutly everything. I want that back. I need to start getting my priorities in check, and realize that its 2009, and in a year and a half I'm gonna be graduating high school...Gah, that seems so weird. I need to get out of this mindset that time just stops whenever I want it to.
Ahhh. :P I have so much I want to do! I want to spend time with friends, and family, even though usually when it comes to family stuff I don't want much to do with it. But I still need to focus on school, and everything else.
I have been cleaning my room a lot lately, I cleaned nearly every day Dom was here to visit.
Which can be a good thing, I suppose. Now I just need to put all this organization to good use, and actually get stuff done.

I really want to make 2009 a good year. And I know I can. I'm not gonna sit around and deal with all the petty drama anymore. Im not looking for reassurance from anyone in my life who doesn't matter. And the people who do matter, I need to make sure they know how much I appreciate all the amazing things they do. I'm done with holding stupid grudges about things that don't even matter, and never will matter. If we don't know eachother and you don't like me, I don't expect any type of explanation.

I wanna laugh more. And people who have seen me would probably think "what? if that girl laughed anymore, she would laugh herself into a coma" -But if you saw me last summer, thats how I wanna laugh again. It was so effortless. Most of the time I would be smiling so huge, and not even notice it.
And I've heard it before, that it's gonna be hard to make things the same as they used to be, or at least make me the same. And at this point, I'm gonna do whatever I can to make myself like I used to be. I wanna be a good best friend again. I wanna be the person you can call on the phone and stay on the phone for 4 and a half hours with, I wanna be able to look at eachother and know what the others thinking, I miss that so muchh.

So there's my gameplan for 2009. Hahah, or at least a good portion of it. I have so many things I want to do, and changes I want to make. Changes that are definitelyy for the better. (:

happy new yearr <3
:D

dom ze bomb

Hm. So Dom Ze Bomb is at my house at the moment. And besides adopting nocturnalism, its been pretttttyy sweet.
We went to Concord last night & picked up two rats i'm keeping as pets, gracie and sentryy :) and they're my favorites right now completely. and dom is probbbbably going to steal sentry, no big.
Ah! So after we picked up the rats last night, it was around midnight, and we were going to meet nick to play some intense harry potter clue games, and we were walking back to my house, and not only did it start snowing (:x) but all of a sudden we see some lady like, running by us, looking behind her like she was being followed. So we kept walking cause she ran off, and then we were walking by Dunkin Donuts, and she comes out of like, the bank parking lot, still running, dom asked her if she needed help and she was just like 'only if you can beat some guy up,' so we werent sure what to do. She was being all stealthy and hiding behind buildings and we asked her if we should call the cops but she said no. Then she called up someone screaming about some guy named Robert chasing her, then ran off. We dunno what happened, but it was pretty damn terrifying :P

Then we played harry potter clue, and tried to straighten nicks hair, but...nope. It's fine though.
Then I was really tired, and was like, semi-sleeping while we were talking, so i was sorta dreaming while we were talking, and then was saying random stuff that made dom and nick judge me times 10. And I kept forgetting where I was, which was quite the good time. But yeah, we actually went to sleep at like, 5ish? And now we've been sleeping our lives away!

Yay for nocturnalism :)