hello oh nine

So new years was pretty fun. Dom stayed over again today, then left to go visit some other people before she leaves tomorrow.

I cannnotttt believe 08 is over. Gah. I can't even imagine what 2009 is gonna be like.
I didn't really make any official resolutions or anything like that. But there really is so much that I want to change.
I had such an amazing year last year. I got to spend so much time with such great people. I made new friends and met new people, and then there were always my closest friends, who right down to the wire were always there for me. We had our ups and downs. Shit, yeah we did :P But they we're so amazing. This summer was one of the greatest summers I think I've ever had. Simone and I were talking a few weeks ago about how we just loved how we could wake up in the morning (or afternoon, hahaha) and know we had something planned. We didn't even have to have set plans for what we were doing, but we knew we were all hanging out. From random drives to concord and who knows what time, or trips to the sandwich creamery, or scary movie nights, or girly sleepovers, we always had ridiculous amounts of fun with whatever we did. Things got kinda crazy at the very end of summer, and that was expected I guess...but seriously, no matter what, nothing can ever change how absolutly amazing that summer was. I couldn't ever imagine spending it with another group of people. I would give absolutly everything to have all of the rest of my summers be like this past one. And I can't even begin to thank all of the people in my life enough for making it so great.

As far as 2009 this year goes. I don't even know what is to come. I'm planning a lot of stuff, just little things I wanna do I guess. I wanna stop being so negative about certain stuff. All this school year so far I have found it so hard to look on the positive side of things. I mean, this summer was so amazing, and now that I'm back in school, and things are not the same, I automatically assume things will never be as good as this past summer again. I need to stop living comparing everything to last year. It used to be so easy for me to just be optimistic about absolutly everything. I want that back. I need to start getting my priorities in check, and realize that its 2009, and in a year and a half I'm gonna be graduating high school...Gah, that seems so weird. I need to get out of this mindset that time just stops whenever I want it to.
Ahhh. :P I have so much I want to do! I want to spend time with friends, and family, even though usually when it comes to family stuff I don't want much to do with it. But I still need to focus on school, and everything else.
I have been cleaning my room a lot lately, I cleaned nearly every day Dom was here to visit.
Which can be a good thing, I suppose. Now I just need to put all this organization to good use, and actually get stuff done.

I really want to make 2009 a good year. And I know I can. I'm not gonna sit around and deal with all the petty drama anymore. Im not looking for reassurance from anyone in my life who doesn't matter. And the people who do matter, I need to make sure they know how much I appreciate all the amazing things they do. I'm done with holding stupid grudges about things that don't even matter, and never will matter. If we don't know eachother and you don't like me, I don't expect any type of explanation.

I wanna laugh more. And people who have seen me would probably think "what? if that girl laughed anymore, she would laugh herself into a coma" -But if you saw me last summer, thats how I wanna laugh again. It was so effortless. Most of the time I would be smiling so huge, and not even notice it.
And I've heard it before, that it's gonna be hard to make things the same as they used to be, or at least make me the same. And at this point, I'm gonna do whatever I can to make myself like I used to be. I wanna be a good best friend again. I wanna be the person you can call on the phone and stay on the phone for 4 and a half hours with, I wanna be able to look at eachother and know what the others thinking, I miss that so muchh.

So there's my gameplan for 2009. Hahah, or at least a good portion of it. I have so many things I want to do, and changes I want to make. Changes that are definitelyy for the better. (:

happy new yearr <3
:D